Motivated by survival

During my working day I decided that tonight I will do some work that I want to be finished by tomorrow. It is one of those days where a lot of unforeseen (unwanted?) things happened and caused my planning not to fit anymore into the available hours. Making this decision I was surprised by the fact it was so easy to make and to assume that I will indeed do it. If i them compare my behavior when it is blog writing or working on my DIP assignments I see a big difference. I am much less motivated.

Let’s have a look at my motivation. What is really motivating me? The fact I want to have things done within the timeframe I agreed on with others? Or does it go deeper? What is it that keeps me running faster for my boss than for myself? Yes, that is it! Writing my blogs and doing my DIP assignments is all stuff I do for mySelf. Making long days in the office and even continuing the work at home is… Fear, Enslavement! Fear to be seen as less competent by my superiors/boss, enslavement by the money system that tells me to work more and more so I can save holidays for extra days off or to be paid as extra salary.

So, enslavement/money/fear are more important than Self. That is not a good balance. But how to find this balance? How to establish the energy/time to dedicate to work and to Self development?

Self-honesty!

Within Self-honesty it is not possible to decide that work is more important than working on my self development. It is equally important. The first to properly function in the system/matrix with no need to exaggerate, the second to become more stable and aware of Life so I can stand as one as breath to the benefit of all and everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my job to be more important than my self development through blogging and doing my DIP assignments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my self development through blogging and dong my DIP assignment as less important than my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow fear of survival to decide what is the best to be done instead of allowing myself in a specific moment to stop and breath and in that moment decide what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be motivated by false arguments drive by fear of survival and enslavement to money instead of get things done because what I do is simply in the best interest of all.

Sleeping naked

Since the weather right now is very hot I thought it might be a nice subject to rite about. Also because you can connect so many things to it: thoughts, opinions, mindfucks… So, let’s have a look at this point.

I can’t really remember since when I sleep naked, but I do it already for ages. The main reason is simple, I do not like to get strangled bij clothing like pyjama’s, not even underwear and a t-shirt. Since I do not have an issue in feeling naked in-between my sheets, everything is fine on that matter. I wonder now that I am writing this if there is a sense of freedom that plays a role here. I’ve tried to wear something in bed, I only manage if in winter temperature si so low I feel cold.

Sexy naked man in bed? I should ask Sylvia what she thinks about it. I remember that the first nights with her I kept my underwear but that was not for long. For sex it is very practical of course! I am always ready (not referring to having a constant erection, just to make sure).

Practical versus unpractical. Let’s start with the unpractical. When you have to get out of bed in an emergency situation you are naked… I must admit that I always have my clothes ready to grab, jut in case. Don’t mind that I might have put them on in a case of emergency. Other unpractical thing has to do with what man have once in a while, wet dreams or just an ejaculation, get’s messy between your sheets. In my  case pretty rare and not sure if it would have been less while wearing something since being naked is not causing sexual arousal to me.

Another important point is that nobody here in the house will be shocked when they see me naked, I guess this is an essential condition to feel at ease enough to do it. Since it is not a point for me to be naked I guessed if I might be a nudist. I dropped this quickly since it is an attempt to put my behavior in a defined definition. My starting point is simple, whenever clothes are uncomfortable to my body and the practical solution is to wear less clothes or none at all (the last one is practically only in bed), I will do it. As long I consider the situation I am in and take care of the impact on others this should be fine.

A little research on the internet shows a lot of benefits given to sleeping naked. I actually started searching to understand why people stick to wearing something in bed if it is not related to being cold. Some might thing it is more hygienic to wear underwear in bed, but many articles actually point out it is the opposite. more ventilation for skin and genitals is healthier than covering it 365/24/7 and let is stay sweaty and sticky. In general it seems that sleeping naked is allowing your body to relax more and to allow you to have a deeper sleep.

My motivation to write on this subject? To see if I could write about this subject with no shame, no feelings, no emotions, just the facts. I managed and it is a great experience to talk about topics with no embarrassment, just seeing the topic itself in a specific contest. Self honesty is important here since you need to face all your motivations to do something. Mine is to have everybody sleeping naked starting tonight and not willing to know if you do so or not, since that is your own business…